mmm, an answer to this i already know... ".......mmm, well, when you put it like that...would you rather be buried here or in jacksonville?"

Seriously though, I wouldnt mind eating more..i wouldnt, except for 2 things, 1, as you have seen, when i actually do let my self eat, i tend to eat big...really big...which leads to me feeling ashamed and starving my self more...and as it is, im down to like 850 to 900 kc a day, maybe sometimes 1100, thats a total for 3 meals and 2 snacks...

then theres number 2, the fact that i seriously dont see much point in going on with this life, it has no draw to me anymore, i never get to see my friends anymore, even when i am in town, i dont watch any tv to speak of, or any movies, all of my time is just spent going through the motions..

and besides.. im finally down under 130 lbs, thats made up of 66% water, and less then 8% body fat, as well as 6 to 8 lbs bone mass, judging by that, my insanely low body temperature and blood preasure, and this ache ive been getting in my ribs (left quadrant) and shoulder, it cant possibly take much longer...you would think she would just get a clue and take the oppurtunity to get some really good life insurance on me and cash in...